Life Attitude...something to ponder (talking to my self...again.)

Salam...

Its been a while since the last time I posted something here. To make it worst, my lappy was struck by a virus for almost a month now and I've yet to got it formatted. Nway, my life has been full with events since the last time I wrote in this blog. Soooooooo many things had happened, some has changed me(Mentally, Emotionally & Spritually)...while other might have an impact to my future.There's so much to say...but there's little time to do that.

I'm truly sorry for those whom I've neglected - family, relatives, friends, loved ones - all those people that I might have hurt their feelings for the past few days, weeks, months or even years...please forgive me for my wrong doings...my hurtful words...my misbehave...my sarcasm...and all those mistakes that I might have not realized during the time I did that thing to you. It was never my intention to hurt your feelings...

I always want people to tell me the truth about me...it might difficult to hear it...but I'm sure its for the best. (its kinda asking people to give a slap to you face...dont you think so???)

I'm always being critical to myself...and at times get carried away with it. I wanted to be the best in everything that I do, and make it up to the perfection (if possible - but of course no one is perfect...except for Allah....the Almighty). I know that at times, this is not a good thing for me because I'm putting myself a pressure - just to meet up with the standards that I've set for myself. Its frightening at times and it keeps me thinking about what and why and how and when and the never ending possibilities of it.

I know deep in my heart that I've got to put my faith to Allah...for HE knows whats the best for me. I guess I really need to dig deep into my soul...purify my heart...strengthen my belief...and improve myself daily to become a better person (Mentally, Emotionally & Spritually)...Insya Allah.

I'm really content with certain things that happened in my life now. I might not like it at first, felt sad about it, its more like a kind of resentment that all normal beings would felt. Regardless all that, I'm sure I would find a way to take it positively, get over it and move on. I always belief that "If its meant to be, It will be..."  (and of course I can say it the other way round too - "If its not meant to be, it will not be" - something that I opted not to choose because I know for sure that my Lord is always there to guide me and help me through all this.)

     “Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens.” ~ Kahlil Gibran ~